Saturday, July 30, 2005

I'm back again!!

Besides suffering from symptom of amnesia, clumsiness, blurness and lack of sense of direction, i've incurred extreme stupidity as well, after moving to kent ridge.

I packed my stuff this afternoon for home, walked through the gates of kent ridge while happily saying byebye to some seniors... when i realised my handphone's not with me!! without wanting to malu myself, i secretly made a detour to enter again by the back gate so that no one could see me. went back to my room but couldn't see handphone anywhere in there! arghh! emptied bag to check again. no handphone! PANIC. borrowed neighbour's phone to call my phone.

I had actually left my phone in my closet. i dunno how.

So walked out from back gate again. still slightly traumatized by the temporary loss of my precious phone. while walking i realised that as i emptied the contents of my bag, i had forgotten to put some of them back in.

DUH.

So walked back to my room again. scanned around the room for a long time to make sure i was completely equipped with what i need. and this time i actually managed to make my way to the bus stop... until i realised i had left my ez-link card behind. but by that time i simply couldn't be bothered anymore.

How stupid can i get? i swear i was already fully awake. i dunno what turned me into this stupid clumsy dork lately. maybe it's the food they feed us.

Who ever eats spicy fried rice for breakfast?


Oh and the funny dating game thing turned out to be quite fun. in the sense that people actually put in lots of effort to jio their desired dates. serenading is popular here. i have no idea why people just like to sing that lao shu ai da mi song ("mouse love rice" as some of them translated). but nevertheless they were all highly amusing to watch.

And there's the inevitable competition and rivalry between people who chose the same date. they make really pretty cards, presents etcetc. some girl pasted posters of her targetted date. you could see her proposal: WANTED. WILL YOU BE MY DATE? almost everywhere at my block. some guy announced I LOVE YOU! and jumped into the pool during the pool games.

Me i've only tried to write him something and bribe him with some chocolates so far. someone whom i've just met and found to be very nice to talk to. i wouldn't wanna feel too awkward during the dinner.

As i sneakily crept to his room to stick the letter and chocolates at his door last night, it felt like i'm in some sort of a dark conspiracy. there was this weird sense of excitement. i dunno where it came from. and this whole paragraph still sounds wrong to me.

Some senior guys have 4-5 girls going after them. but obviously i wouldn't be going after the hot stuffs. i would have to be crazy to do that. i'm very unsporty.


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Thursday, July 28, 2005

Hi i'm back home! haha... came back to get some stuff and plan my modules and now i feel lazy to go back.

Hall orientation was... ok. like the usual orientations that i've been to. not very exciting, not much to blog about. anyway i've got about 12 days of orientation to go =X

I think the most exciting thing that happened to me was when i got lost in NUS. i was carrying those 2 damn heavy matriculation packs heading back to hall when i took the wrong direction of bus. by right it shouldn't be much of a problem cos i could just stop at the terminal and take the same bus again. sounds duh but ya, this is what happens when you do not have enough direction sense.

So that was what i did... yet i wasn't familiar with the route and missed my stop. the next stop was too far away and when i got down, i have absolutely no idea where to go from there. and suddenly it just started raining. drat. how sway can i get?!

The lost sheep somehow found her way by walking (a long way) to some bus stop which looked familiar and fortunately it was the right direction.

By the time i reached my hall i was 50% wet and 1/2 hour late for dinner. i look like i've been through hell. oh but there was still a good thing that happened to me... my neighbours were waiting for me!! so sweet of them... we all ended up finishing last in the (air-conditioned!) dining room lol...

And i dunno whether the feng shui of my room is bad or my shoes wore out, i just kept tripping my way. up the bus, down the stairs, even when walking on flat surfaces i have to trip at least thrice a day. but don't worry i haven't fallen YET. i've got a little cut on my feet though.

Oh yes and i just gotta complain about the DATING part of orientation. every freshie was anticipating some sort of secret pal dating game sponsored by sdu. but hoho we were supposed to go hunt for some senior from another block and try to date him/her to the formal dinner. "you can make banners, write notes or even serenade to him".

You're asking to go jio some guy whom i don't even know and ask him out for dinner?!?!? sounds totally wrong to me. what makes them think that everyone is super desperate to get attached??? gimme a break!

Think it's just some ploy the seniors devised to help themselves get asked out for dates. the scheming people.


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Monday, July 25, 2005

Cheeguan predicts that i will isolate my blog.

I really hope not haha...

I'll be moving to NUS... today! 25th july 2005 monday! i don't have a laptop yet so i'll be without access again for a few days. and my hectic life starts from then on. i'm really lazy to list out my schedule for the next few weeks so i'll just keep it in my head. but basically i have orientation for 2 freaking weeks where i also have to plan and bid for my modules and go for medical check up and go for matriculation fair and go to the hair dresser with mer and go for our bimbotic session with tru (heehee)... then classes will start.

I'll just go with the flow. (the truth is i'm sosuperstressedupnow and maybe being a typical virgo i can't stand it when everything's so out of order arghh someone please hold my hand).

Eunice mentioned to me before that she couldn't understand why some people blog everyday. haha... i guess it's like a diary to them.. they have to write down everything before they go to bed. and actually i blog almost everyday too. not that i live a very happening life... i don't really produce what-i-did-what-happened-to-me-today entries much. usually prefer to blog about my thoughts for the day.

And there are periods of time when i simply have no idea what to write about at all. maybe when i'm not thinking much. no substantial thoughts for the day.

A couple of days ago, while trying to explain market failure to cheeguan, i was reminded of my amnesia condition again(see what i mean. i even forgot that i have amnesia). i think the more i explain the more confused he got. hahaha... ay.. go ask your joel better lah. but if no one else available can try to ask me also =p

I got my overseas call today~ please try not to let your instructor mess with your head haha... sounds dangerous.

Ok enough blogging nonsense. it's late. i have not finished packing.


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Sunday, July 24, 2005

Happy birthday dear laoda happy birthday to yooooooou~

Today's entry shall be dedicated to my lao da. cos she's 19 today and it's very important.

I dunno how she got to be called lao da but it fits cos she likes to take care of her friends a lot. and it feels so natural to call her lao da. like hey lao da! as though people have been calling her that forever and it's her name. and i vaguely remember telling tru about siyun and she goes "who?" me:"lao da" her: "oh"

I'm eternally grateful to my lao da for being the first outright support when i was at my lowest period. although at that point of time we weren't considered the bestest friends, she seemed to fully understand what i was going through and was there for me all the time. and i really mean ALL THE TIME! i felt really sorry to be bothering her all that time but she didn't seem to mind one bit.

I'll always cherish that card you bought from the bookshop for me, about your friend swallowing 8 panadols... haha... because i was sincerely very touched by it... what would i do without lao da then?!?!?!

Lao da is an i'll-be-here-for-you-when-you-are-down friend, not just to me but to sooo many of her friends as well... i know that it could be very emotionally draining for her... and that's why she's sucha kind and sweet girl! i'm sure a lot of people would agree with me. and i wished i could be more like her.

Are you reading this?!? haha... thanks for everything... although we seldom see each other now you'll always be in my heart! enjoy your birthday ~~ =D


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Saturday, July 23, 2005

I was reading a blog entry of a friend about the evils her ex-boyfriend did to her after they broke up... and i suddenly realised that i was quite lucky. ok not really suddenly, but it REMINDED me that i'm quite lucky already.

I was feeling deeply stressed & depressed during that period of time. And although a lot of times i felt that he didn't understand the way i am, my character, my behaviour... but at least he tried to be sensitive to my feelings. he did try to make me feel better in a lot of situations, to the point of lying slightly... he was able to take my abuses on him reasonably well, during that tough period of time. must have been hard on him. for that he deserves a big HUG.

Ya i know i can't stand lies. but in a way they are white lies i guess. so could be a bit more pardonable (is there sucha word?). though i wished i never had to uncover the truth.

Ya i also know that i complain about him a lot. that's because i'm a whining bitch. i've never haboured any real hatred for anyone before. perhaps cos i forget things easily. i remember most of the good things he's done and try not to think of the bad so that i'll forget them faster.

Ok of course i must again defend myself by saying that i deserved to be comforted in the first place and it's not like he's a saint.

And i miss my overseas call.


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Friday, July 22, 2005

Yes i realise that i'm very spoilt. it's not like i'm very rich. i also dunno why i'm spoilt.

Oh yes and you do realise that no pic today! means my com is back to (almost) normal. hooray~

Yup and i also realised that there is an increasing number of people setting up their own blogs! hehe... interesting... in that way i can regularly read about wassup with them.

And a lot of people are constantly worried about the contents on their blogs being offensive to others. me too i'm worried. especially about offending my friends. which you'll never know about cos they'll just read and fume inside and never tell you. psst i don't mind friends coming to inform me if they feel uncomfortable about me writing about them.

But i feel that everyone is entitled to their own opinions. you may think that she is wrong in doing this, or judge her by what she writes on her blog... but that's just her... the way she leads her life. if you do not understand her... then you just simply do not understand. she may just be different, not neccessarily wrong. there is no absolute perfect way of life that everyone has to abide by.

In an attempt to try and defend myself, i say that.. ahem.. yes i do discuss (or gossip, to put it in a crude way) about what others write on their blogs sometimes... but i absolutely do not mean any harm. i do not intend to hurt, defame or bring them down in any way.

So to those who take people's blogs too seriously, or try to bring them down through what they write... i hereby laugh at you HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.....

And take care of yourself. be careful of what YOU write/say. and RELAC lah! (compliments from the MLM lady).


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Wednesday, July 20, 2005


My compulsory pic of the day was taken from the esplanade. quite blurry. if you look hard enough you may be able to spot the merlion.

A 'private number' called me yesterday. i thought it was that old weirdo who used to call and say nothing. picked it up anyway. the moment i did, i heard:" you have an overseas call..." and i got so damn excited. i was reallyreally very excited, tapping my fingers to the few seconds of connection until i heard the familiar hello. whee i have an overseas call ~!! ^-^

Hmmm why do i get so excited over a call?

Today a 'private number' called me again. "gasp my call again?!?" but it was another weirdo who couldn't be bothered to say 'sorry wrong number' and hung up. pui.

Hmmms i miss having you around.

Ok enough of my senseless ramblings.

I've always thought of myself as a very average person with a very average life. wonderful things rarely happen to me. i've also never encountered any much unfortunate events in my life. it's just... oh.. liddat loh. very normal.

Perhaps i wished i was prettier so that i could have my way more often than not (opps =P). or nerdier so that i could make it to medicine school. or richer so that i could afford more of life's luxuries.

Oh wells.

But at least i made it to university. i'm not so hideous that everyone wants to stay away. i'm not living in poverty. so when i feel grouchy again i could remind myself of the less fortunate people.

I guess... that the key to happiness is contentment. pairs hilton could be smarter but she thought she's already very smart so that's enough for her. when i'm contented with what i have i'm really much happier. but the truth is most of the time i'm not. but when life starts afresh in university, i shall try to put the pieces back again and have a clearer view of what i really want in my life.


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Tuesday, July 19, 2005


My com is still NOT OK. that lousy piece of @#$^%&^. i'm so sorry that i can't reply to any tags for now... will try to borrow someone's com soon =D

Blogging with Hello's really weird. like it's compulsory to post a picture. so i shall post the funny breadtalk $2 cake. it's real pretty. darn tiny. and $2 is on offer you know. still so expensive.

Sent brandon to off at the airport today. he says you can see that love is all around at the airport. (he copied the quote from 'love actually') envied how close and sweet they looked when he said goodbye to his parents grandparents sister & even cousins. i was never that close to my family in any way.

Suddenly recalled the box of my favourite belgian chocolates in the fridge that someone had given to me on my birthday. realized that the thoughts of them being consumed do not make my heart ache anymore. finally decided to open up and eat a piece. ummmm nice... gonna expire on september anyway...

Sometimes... when i think back on certain events of my life... i really felt very ashamed of myself. so naive. so silly. what was i thinking of. why was i even doing that. whywhywhy i felt like turning back time...

Have you ever felt that way before?

But as time passes i realised they do fade. there are a lot of things which i couldn't quite recall anymore. or the feelings aren't that strong anymore. i'm gonna try to finish up my belgian chocolates fast.


My friends from work were talking about getting married early the other day. which reminded me of my 'ambition' to marry at 25. but it suddenly came to me that it may not be very possible. see here. i'm 19 this year. i visualized myself to be going through at least a 5 year relationship before i can safely assure myself that this is the right guy i wanna grow old with. which means i gotta get that serious boyfriend by next year! *thinking... which seems to prove that my visualizations could never come through.

Ok lah maybe next year not so bad.

Arghhk! who wants me. i'm very demanding. i have high expectations of my guy. he has to give me a lot of attention; take care of me all the time; be there for me all the time; cheer me up successfully when i'm down; be very sweet; never ever lie to me etc.

So self-centered!! psst i especially can't stand dishonesty.

Actually i never knew i was like that. maybe i got spoilt from the last time. maybe it's time to grow out of such puppylove.

When i realised that this guy would potentially bring me a lot of disappoinments in future... i'd rather not have him at all and be alone.

On the other hand, i have no answer as to what a girl like jinling can offer a guy like him. no achievements no status no looks no nothing. nada! i sometimes feel like sucha little prawn beside him.


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Saturday, July 16, 2005


I'm currently encountering some problems with my net. i can't browse any webpage at all with my browsers. can access to places like msn though. so i'm now blogging through this hello thing. dunno if it'll work. just blog in case it does. i'm desperate.

I had a lot of things to blog about these few days. stuff like NKF. but somehow while i was being denied the rights of blogging these few days, the ramblings in my head kinda vaporised.

Anyway, luckily she didn't say anything more than his pay being 'peanuts'. not good to provoke another public outrage.

Brandon's leaving for his pilot training on monday! so exciting... i wanna go too... he says there's free flow of ice-cream and good food in camp. can use lap-top and surf net even. wth such good life in camp lol... One less person around now. *grumbles...

Heyhey... by the way... thanx for patiently putting up with all my grouses/whines/complains/childishness & my whole truckload of crap all the time... thanx for loving & accepting me for being me... all my fears & insecurities... and me being a big fat procratinator (the kind which you always complain to me about, yet able to make me feel less bad about being one). few people are able to do that... really means a lot to me you know? =D

Anyway 2 months only right? i won't miss you too much then! lol... hopefully i'll see you only when you've completed what you're supposed to complete. but i'll still be very proud of you no matter whether you pass or fail ok? hehe.. ;p

It's really weird trying to blog with this funny hello thing. i shall not say too much then. please help me pray that my com will be alright soon. i feel terribly crippled without net access... =(


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Monday, July 11, 2005

Update on the stupid MLM thing!



She smsed me today: hi jinling. this is XX from XX. just 2 remind u about our appointment tmr at 6.30. cya! =)


I replied: i don't think i'll be interested in working n studying at the same time. wanna concentrate on studies. thanx anyway 4 ur time. =)


Which in a way is true. but if there really IS a good & legal opportunity to earn money i wouldn't let it go for nuts.


MLM: this would be a good opportunity for u 2 work with a v flexible schedule. just come n listen with an open mind! listening is free. do not listen to those cheap advice. come n see for yourself and listen 2 expert. it's ok to bring a friend to come along if u want. RELAC LAH!


=S *stunned


Me: it's ok. cos i've talked 2 my parents and they don't want me to divert my time n attention somewhere else either.


Which again is kinda true. my mum doesn't encourage me to teach tuition while studying. do i sound like a total geek to her? she asked me to RELAC.


MLM: ok... by the way just 2 let u noe that we also hav scholars in my team n they find it v worthwhile the experience 2 work here.


Me: ok... i'll ask around my friends 2 see if anyone is interested, then i'll contact you.


MLM: Thanks and i always look forward 2 meet pple who r opportunity-seeking and open-minded 2 come check out personally if the opportunity is right 4 them. god bless and stay in touch.


Saying that i'm some narrow-minded non-adventurous little prude lah. whatever. at least i'm not in deep shit like you, trying desperately to recruit innocent kids like me to recoup your losses. right? right?? i've heard of people my age getting cheated by thousands while doing this. thank you vey much.


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I met bra on fri at the train station. some colleagues who were waiting for train saw. the usual teasings about going on a 'date' as expected. but can't blame them. youngsters.

But apparently someone told someone that a guy always sees me home. from meeting a guy friend after work ---> a guy always sees me home.

Not that i'm angry lah. just that... i don't appreciate people telling untrue stuff about me behind my back. i'm sure it has happened a lot of times but this time is just happened that someone told me.

You can't control what people say. sometimes, i do say a lot of wrong things without thinking how much hurt it could inflict on others as well.

Is it true that it's only when certain things happen to yourself that you'll start to reflect and think about how you've done the same to others as well?


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Friday, July 08, 2005

I got poached at work today. is poached the right word to use? i vaguely remember that it is, but now i'm not so sure, cos i visited www.dictionary.reference.com and it says:

1)To trespass on another's property in order to take fish or game.
2)To take fish or game in a forbidden area.
3)To become muddy or broken up from being trampled. Used of land.
4)To sink into soft earth when walking.
5)a.To take or appropriate something unfairly or illegally.
b.Sports. To play a ball out of turn or in another's territory, as in doubles tennis.

So that means i'm the fish isit?


Anyway it all took place in the toilet. i was taking my usual toilet break (i go once every hour to slack there). i was at the sink with this woman i've never seen before. could see that she was dressed very well, but not exactly office wear.

She was washing her hands when she suddenly turned to me and said:"i heard there's a peeping tom here ah."

Me:" wow. really? that's new to me."
Her:" ya that's why they now require a key to get in here."
Me thinking peeping toms in female toilets of an office building? how? i don't understand... almost all office toilets need keys wat :" er ok... you work next door isit?"

And it got her started on how wonderful is her job and the products that she's selling. according to her, they are so wonderful that you wouldn't believe it until you've seen it.

Wah. so wonderful how come i haven't heard of it. you earning big bucks?

Then she went on further to ask me to work for the company. promote their products and courses. " let's make a tentative appoinment now to talk about this shall we?" she says.

"Oh it's great that you are working as a telemarketer now! you now already have a huge pool of contacts which you could bring over to our company!" she whispers.

Erm... you mean steal my current company's database and handover to YOUR company? is this even legal? why are you WHISPERING??

Ok let me get this right. i'm currently working in the direct marketing section now, and this person working next door deals with MLM (multi-level marketing). she's asking me to work for HER company, bringing in MY current company's database.

Is that how the real world functions all the time?

I'm not certain if this was what she meant. afterall, she did not try to entice me with all the lush benefits i could reap. she kinda forced me to make TENTATIVE appointment with her though.

Plus, i heard that for MLM, for every person you manage to rope in to work for the company, you get some kind of commission, hence her persistence...

Sanny says this kind could be cheat money. they might ask you to surrendar some of your hard-earned money in order to earn more money. haha... good to know more though. i'll definitely never ever invest my $$$ earned by sweat & blood to do something i absolutely have no confidence in doing well ie sales.

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Watched Initial D today. i totally had no idea what's DRIFTING before i watched the movie. i thought it's like when a car speeds across a valley, it floats in the air for a while and that would be DRIFTING. makes sense.

I had no interest nor knowledge in street cars or car racing at all. i watched it cos got JAY CHOU, just like why most people watched it.

Highly interesting movie. the racing scenes were very exciting, although you can always predict that he'll win everytime. 99% of the cast acted as some cool dude (with exception of the girl who acted cute). the rapport between the cast was hilarious.

I dunno what's jay acting. he's really not acting at all. everything you heard about him just being himself? it's true. he stones 90% of his scenes. talk about an easy job.

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I finally got accepted into kent ridge hall! yippe! i'm so happy... after everything that i've gone through...

I hereby swear that i WILL NOT go clubbing all the time. WILL NOT NOT attend lectures and fail my modules like so many of the horror stories that i've heard.

I WILL be a mugger. i WILL do well. i know i've said that throughout my entire j2 year but hey i did become a mugger nearing the end. although i now know that's way insufficient. i've tasted failure and learnt my lesson!


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Thursday, July 07, 2005

Thanks to everyone who has tagged! hehe... i generated a record-breaking number of 55 hits today (not that it's even a lot). mostly from unfamiliar sources. wonder if it's because of the new design... so maybe it's good that not everyone tagged, if not the taggie would have burst! =P

But continue tagging anyway haha... i love tagboards. taggietagtagtag.

I didn't go to work yesterday, cos it was the end of the my campaign and apparently the project leader gave me a day's break. so i took the day to do my blog. i seriously took the whole day. woke up at 7.40am (!!) to talk to my leader, then decided to make a new skin! sat in front of the computer labouriously searching for designs, looking for materials, looking a bit a bra's book, figuring what all those codes mean...

This is damn hard work!! i diligently worked till nightfall and tada!! the first proper looking skin design i've ever made in my life. i've made a few others before but they were all done quite hastily.

All the effort! whew! i feel so accomplished. this skin would be here to stay for quite long!

With a new design i shall make special effort to write nicely and intelligently now. i hope. thou shalt not whine nor complain too much in thy blog as of previously.


Okays! i'm feeling happier at work now as the telemarketers get more friendly with each other. we are having more joy & laughter in the office, while getting more complains from the permanent staff. we started to notice a super chio lady in the office and some of the girls were considering switching to the other side.

Work itself could be interesting as well. there were numerous intriguing conversations happening between telemarketers and the business managers over the phone... words were exchanged that could never be forgotten.

I'll never forget the time when Yoga called Khong Guan Ltd and asked for mr. khong guan. or when Vera was told that the person she's looking for is dead. told in a totally blunt and 'as-a-matter-of-fact'-ly way.

I'll miss all of them when school starts! but yay got seafood session on monday haha... hope everyone would be able make it... =)


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Tuesday, July 05, 2005

New blogskin!

I've had my sweet pinkish skin for more than half a year. i still love it a lot, but decided to change for something new! whee~~ this blog is best viewed using IE. if not you'll be missing out on a lot like the flash and music.

And the most importantly i made this whole thing myself! from scratch! not piecing codes together like what i did for my pink blog hehe... wooo what an achievement.. haha...

"Hao lian lah!"

Yeah this blog has quite a lot of pink too. but i shall call it the chobits blog.

People who happened to stop by pleaseplease tag my board okie? tell me if i should take the text on the left away cos i feel that the whole thing looks kinda messy and squeezy. no space to breathe.

Or that if it looks unbalanced.

Just give me some comments... =)


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