Saturday, July 23, 2005
I was reading a blog entry of a friend about the evils her ex-boyfriend did to her after they broke up... and i suddenly realised that i was quite lucky. ok not really suddenly, but it REMINDED me that i'm quite lucky already.
I was feeling deeply stressed & depressed during that period of time. And although a lot of times i felt that he didn't understand the way i am, my character, my behaviour... but at least he tried to be sensitive to my feelings. he did try to make me feel better in a lot of situations, to the point of lying slightly... he was able to take my abuses on him reasonably well, during that tough period of time. must have been hard on him. for that he deserves a big HUG.
Ya i know i can't stand lies. but in a way they are white lies i guess. so could be a bit more pardonable (is there sucha word?). though i wished i never had to uncover the truth.
Ya i also know that i complain about him a lot. that's because i'm a whining bitch. i've never haboured any real hatred for anyone before. perhaps cos i forget things easily. i remember most of the good things he's done and try not to think of the bad so that i'll forget them faster.
Ok of course i must again defend myself by saying that i deserved to be comforted in the first place and it's not like he's a saint.
And i miss my overseas call.
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