Monday, September 19, 2005

Ok i realised what's my problem when i said i feel that i might never fall in love again. it's because i'm afraid of committment and that's because i don't wanna break up again and that's because it makes me sad and depressed boohoo. it makes me go crazy and do bad things to people which results in them having to be VERY tolerant.

That is why for 12 months i was just waiting around for a-miracle-to-happen-that-can-make-me-more-confident-of-myself.

Till now it hasn't.

And i'm thinking it might never.

So i thought that sucks.

And then you might say that i think too much. Use your heart! don't use your brain! your brain so lousy, of not much use anyway! save it for better use lah! like exams of something.

But i keep THINKING that if i feel too much and not THINK i'll be letting myself down cos i'm not being LOGICAL and whatever i feel will not make SENSE.

I like to think. No wonder i'm indecisive.

When people say 'i heart you' i probably say 'i brain you'.

Maybe i should just take things easier. maybe with a grain of salt or something.


Let's talk about my cousin now. cousin kaikai is going oxford to study law! *gasp! your cousin so smart! you never inherit the genes are. *sniggers

Anyhow... yes my cousin is freakingly good. i brain him. i grew up calling him kaikai. but now that i'm 19 and he's 21, it's kinda weird to call him kaikai still, especially since we're not on very close terms. and another cousin weiwei. i don't call him weiwei anymore. and another cousin called xiao niu (little cow). i might still call him xiao niu now and then.

Back to kaikai. it's quite an irony that we only thought of exchanging msn contacts when he's going overseas. i guess that's how distance can make you grow closer.


Talking about oxford, i'll think of myself in NUS. thinking about NUS, i'll start to think about my 4-day mid-term break. and i still don't understand how why where what who when. the break starts from monday ends on thurdays. so new term starts on a friday hence the 1st week ends on a thursday. so would all the other weeks. so basically this fri belongs to odd week up till thurs where i'll have sociology tutorial and no econs tutorial. the fri after this thurs belongs to even week up till the next thurs where i'll have no soci tutorial but my econs one. darn confused? you bet i am too!!!

Whew. this is making my life more complicated than ever. but i cannot insult NUS here in case some desparados are spending time reading random blogs to see if we write anything offensive so that they can sue us. whew. if you ask me, that's even a greater waste of time then asking me to walk 5km for the NUS heritage walk. pooh! seriously got nothing better to do isit.


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