Saturday, December 31, 2005
Here am i 3am in the morning, talking about relationships with trudi. trudi is very wise. she says relationships depend on how it started and how you handle it.
I think it all depends on compatibility. no matter how lousy your personality is, or how unintelligent your way of handling your relationship is.... it will be good as long as the other party accepts you the way you are. i often find myself thinking oh man this kinda 'lan ren' (lousy person) also got people want ah. of cos got.
I'm always trying to be myself. but i'm finding it increasingly difficult not to act in the way that could be more favourable. the moment my actions betray my emotions, i feel guilty that i'm not presenting the real me and you'll never know and like who i really am. but on the other hand, i'd rather you adore the pretended jinling than to dislike the real her.
*music plays who is that girl i see staring straight back at me... why is my reflection someone i don't knowwwwwwww
Anyway, as we were saying... relationships are so chim. the last statement i made to tru was 'i shall not be too emotionally dependent on him', before she *poofed behind her screen. i think i'm being too careful in not to make the same mistakes i've made before. i worry and agonise myself all the time. it's so difficult. at one time i decided that i'll not have any expectations of the relationship at all in case i'll get disappointed... is that correct? but what's a serious relationship without expectations?
A mysterious friend of mine complains about every single aspect of her boyfriend's life. she gets lonely and pissed when he doesn't reply her smses within a minute's time.
That's the last thing i want to happen to me.
Tru remains disappeared. where are you??? i shall go sleep first.
dara left a footprint @
1:57 AM
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